Back into the Drone

Freshman orientation starts in a little over a week, and after that, school. For almost two weeks, catching up with friends who’ve been far far away. Back into the easy banter, wishing it didn’t have to end. When school starts, the circle changes again.
A slow process, figuring myself out, and it’s nice to know that [...]

3Ps: Politics, Panic and People

We avoid conflicts. By sending messages, physical or digital, to each other, because meeting personally would cause friction, especially when tempers are high. There are enough problems without us having internal conflicts.
Politics and bureacracy. Two things which I hate having to deal with, both of with are in abundance in a confined area where everyone [...]

Il pleut

The pitter-patter of raindrops, interspersed with the roars of thunder following flashes of lightning, is my only companion on a lonely night, with  incomplete tasks weighing on my mind, heralding a week of stress and sleeplessness.
What have I gotten myself into? There are a lot of things I want to do, but I’m forced to [...]

Domino Effect

Watching someone close to you fall apart while watching someone close to her fall apart is depressing.
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I should, I should, I should

I should be writing my essays, but I’m here blogging.
I should be planning for my presentations, but I’m on facebook.
I should be studying for tests, but I’m watching videos on youtube. 
I don’t feel the pressure. I know that once I get started, I’ll be able to find the momentum to continue, but the problem is, [...]

Dilemmas

I had a presentation due today, on the essay that I kept telling everyone I had to do, so much so I think they were sick of hearing me talk about it.I feel cheated, and yet relieved, that all my late nights turned out to be an exercise in futility. In the end, the tutor [...]

It starts today..

Vacillating between choices,
my most capricious nature
hindering me from
a definite decision.
Bombarded by opinions;
suggestions
based on practicality.
Careers commonly held in awe.
Too many options.
One moment maybe it won’t be so bad,
the next
I shudder at the thought.
Head or heart?
If head, can I do it?
If heart, what exactly does it say?

Behind the Scenes

An excited buzz lights the air, waves of nervousness and fear warring with anticipation and restlesness washes over the atmosphere. The morning, so like any other, is differentiated only by expectation.
Here and there, the underlying tension is punctuated by jokes and teasing, the holes they make filled in as soon as they appear. Talk of [...]

Please don’t screw up

I’m seriously trying not to get nervous here.

Join the unemployed clique

I’m officially starting my search for an end to my unemployed status. Everyday, I tell myself, gotta find a job, get out of this pit of lethargy, do something. Everyday, I continue to lounge around doing nothing.
Unless and until I have a stable job, planning the rest of my half year of freedom isn’t possible, [...]